Your family, friends, and most other people never know you, not really. Family's vision is obscured by the interactions they've had with you throughout your life and its slow development. You get cast in a role and are never really successful at emerging from the confines and constraints of the limitations that your family places upon you. The insufficiency of their understanding impairs their own vision of you. You've always had a secret life within that was untranslatable, unspeakable, incapable of communication. It is the essential you inside that (almost) no one will ever know. And yet, it leads you on, if you're brave enough to continue to listen to the whisperings of your own heart despite the opposition of those closest to you, seeming friends, open enemies -- or the sheer apathy of the world at large. If you're lucky, there have been a few chosen people scattered along the way, those who saw you truly, or at least glimpsed momentarily some truth about you, and if you're really fortunate, they might have shared that with you and the affirmation was enough to keep you going.
Lacking that, you simply have to affirm yourself in the face of all odds or the complete dearth of understanding you encounter. Or the misconceptions and projections of others. It's a hard task to walk through the world and remain even somewhat clean. Hopefully, life's blows don't shut down your instincts or shake your sense of who you really are and you don't cave in to the doubts of others, or your own. Persevere. You will succeed in your own way, on your own terms, in your own time. Keep walking.
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